♥NADD KNOWLES!♥

As i mention the previous post ; Why is a good relationship so hard to find? Thoughts of you keep running through my mind. You told me you loved me and I actually believed, but you had secrets and lies that you constantly conceived. I tried to learn to trust you, but you kept giving me reasons to doubt, now thinking about you just causes me to mope and pout. I don't know what to do with you, or what to say, I just know I cant go on in life feeling this way. You re pulling me in so many directions its hard to stay on track, then once I think I got away from you, I keep on getting pulled back. I want you more then life itself but I keep on getting hurt, and once I think things are fine again I get thrown in the dirt. You tell me that you love me so why do you treat me like this? As if I don't matter or as if I don't exist. I'm done dealing with all your lies, And all those times you made me cry. Also all those times you left me here, or all those times you weren't there or anywhere near. I try my very very very very very to be there whenever you asked me(even how last minute) I do every single thing just for you to put a smile on your face to make everything complete and sacrifice almost every mins of space that i had,on you.(without hesitating of how late i gonna reach home) I didn't expect much in return,other than a pillar to hold on EVERYTHING! I'm the slegeh girl whom you always insult. I'm the small girl whom you always insult. I'm the girl whom you always throw a basket of vulgarities. I'm the girl whom still stand strong when she knew every steps u made,you rough movements and words. WHATS MORE YOU WANT,2i=!\-/- !! With a snap on fingers, You blew me off when i was standing at the high elements. You don't care how it hurt,at all.